Cha cha changes...

Changes
David Bowie

I still don't know what I was waiting for

And my time was running wild

A million dead-end streets

Every time I thought I'd got it made

It seemed the taste was not so sweet

So I turned myself to face me

But I've never caught a glimpse

Just gonna have to be a different man

Time may change me

It has been brought to my attention many times in my life that I am not always the most positive ray of sunshine to be around...even though I really dont want to be seen this way,  I still let it happen far too much.

I've been through quite a bit in my 26 years and feel I have mostly grown from it in a positive way, but I have recently noticed that is not always the case. I have so much to be thankful and happy for and all too often I only concentrate on what I don't have, or need and can't get at the moment, or what I've been through. I guess I suffer from "the grass is greener" syndrome when in fact the grass is greener underfoot. (thanks)

I desire to be happy and naturally make others around me happy too. I'm not completely sure where the negativity and self-loathing comes from or even where/when it started but it has become a slippery slope.

Why is everything... never enough?  I have my health, a job (maybe not my dream job, but who can be picky now-a-days), a car I love, amazing animals, a great apartment in a great city, a lover and friend that I spend every second I can with, an incredible hobby/side business that fuels me everyday to get out of bed, and family that would walk through fire for me.

Yet I dwell on the harsh reality of a failed marriage, lost/destroyed friendships, never having enough money, the hell of customer service and feeling left out by living so far from everything I've ever known.

This sadness and negativity must STOP!! I've got too much to lose if I let myself slide into the dangerous abyss of depression and I've got to try harder to move on, let go and find peace. My life really is too great to let go of dreams and stay stuck in a rut!!

So cha cha changes are in the works and I'm feeling great about it. I follow some very positive blogs written by very inspiring girls that remind me on a daily basis that life is pretty and wonderful and worth using every second you can to discover what's amazing around you!!

You should check them out too!

katie stratton
elsie flannigan
angela hardison

Thanks ladies;)

So my hopes are to frequently update this blog with positive and happy observations and changes of my/our life until I snuff out that pesky dark cloud that follows me around all too often!!

The first positive change has been my hair!! (shallow maybe, but who doesn't want to feel pretty?)
Yesterday I got to see my favorite stylist Holly and spend quality time at the salon which is always wonderful. She is amazing and always makes me feel pretty, she can do the same for you too :)

I walked in feeling unkept and icky...

and left feeling confident and lovely!

so here is to positive changes, finding the silver lining in every situation, and 

photographing beautiful things everyday!

peace & love ~